Sunday, June 27, 2010

Having Life Issues

Do you ever get to the point where life is just flat out overwhelming?

I think I'm there.

My day to day life has never been easy but lately it is getting downright rough.

I am coming to terms with the fact that my baby, who is now 4, probably has ADHD. See he's at the extreme end of hyperactive and has always been a "difficult" child. I thought, hoped, it would get better as he got older.

Not so much.

It's to the point where no one will help me with him because he is so over the top, I can't get friends or family to babysit for him and taking him anywhere is a nightmare.

So I am kinda stuck with him 24/7. Even my husband is at the end of the line dealing with him- I think if things keep going the way they are my hubby is going to give himself a heart attack.

I am now researching everything I can about ADHD and working on modifying his diet and changing his routine to help calm and focus him. Soon we visit a doctor and see about a real diagnosis not just my educated, researched and end of my ropes opinion. I really don't want to put him on meds but if nothing else works...

My other dilemma is my daughter...her school decided to put the 6th graders in the high school next year. She's going into 6th grade.

I do not want her in that school with high schoolers- the school is full of thugs and gang bangers. My son was targeted when he went there and he was released to a different school district. They wouldn't release my daughter at that time. Now it's going to be a fight.

We don't currently have the option of up and moving to a new school district like most of her friends did. And the schools around here are not accepting kids from out of the district. I am considering homeschooling her as a last resort I am just not sure if I have the patience for that- especially considering my predicament of the four year old and trying to work from home.

Contrary to some family member's beliefs- I am not superwoman and can not do it all. I am already having a hard enough time making ends meet and it seems like I am never going to finish my novels because I am always working on the little things that bring in a couple bucks. I can't exactly go out and get a job outside my home because of the little guy and the childcare issue.

Right now my head is spinning around in circles trying to figure out what to do with my son and his issues and my daughter's schooling issues. With her I thought I had a year left to worry about this situation because she would have joined the high school in 7th grade then her school had to go and change things without even letting parents know ahead of time.

I am at my wits end this weekend as every escape route turns into a dead end and every possible solution turns out to be nothing more than wishful thinking.

So I had to write this as a way to vent before my head actually explodes.

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