Cracked- Poetry by Roxanne Rhoads

I don’t blame you for everything

Goddess knows I have suffered, my life has been hell

But you were the final straw

Makes sense that the one I loved the most,

Hurt me the most

When I needed someone strong to lift me up

You played games with my head and my heart

But I loved you anyway

When I needed someone to hold me in the night

To chase away the terror eating away at me

You lay beside me snoring, oblivious to my pain

I gave you the one thing you wanted

I thought I would be cherished

But I was discarded, 

Nothing more than a vessel

When my soul cried out in agony

You called me names and abused me

Left me alone and suffering

You were the proverbial straw that broke the camel’s back

But I stayed anyway

I tried to love, but it hurt too much

I shut it all off

And my body broke

I’m now just a cracked shell

Any empty reminder 

of the vibrant woman I used to be

(c) 2017 Roxanne Rhoads